Now you all know I have become a bit cynical in regards to dating lately. Especially since my last burn. Now I feel like I am getting over it, got the closure and now I am moving on. But the hurt still raises it's ugly head every now and again. A little reminder will pop up every once in awhile. I got to the point where every time I would think about the ex, I would say to myself he must be thinking about me, then I think, good let him wallow in it. I will be just fine. So it has been a little over a month and a half. Since I found out what kind of man he was. I have decided to try to put myself back out there. Every time I go through a bunch of crap with a guy, I sit and think, I should've stayed with my ex- husband, at least I know all his faults and his positives too. Well that lasts all of about 5 minutes and then I get over that too. He is a good guy, but it didn't work for a reason.
So now it is time to move forward not backward. Me, being a little adventurous decided to try a dating service. An on- line dating service. On- line dating worked for my sister and her now husband, so why shouldn't it work for me? Why not give it a try. I would like to say the name of this dating service but I won't, not just yet anyways. It has been just over a week and it took a little time to come up with some matches that I was personally interested in. Now this will be a new thing for me and involving my writing because I am taking you along with me every step of the way. We will see what happens. I have at the present, about 7-8 matches, and by matches I mean people the dating service seems to think I am compatible with. I like this service so far for a variety of reasons. You have to do profiles and they match you based on that, plus you have to correspond through their site for a while so that seems safe for now. There have been two guys in particular who I am interested in, but we will see. For some reason I always pick older men. Go figure. I just prefer older men I guess. Older men seem to be more grounded I guess. They also seem to know what they want and are usually not into playing games. Except the last guy I dated he was older and such a player.
Well you all will be kept up to date, because I can't do this alone. I am more leery now and yes a little afraid. One good thing about me and my dating is, I never get my son involved, with any of the men. I did it one time and I will never do it again until I know for sure I have met my one and only. I never wanted to have my child involved. Everyone should really think about that. I mean your kids have already went through enough with the split with you and their father or mother, there is no need to let them get attached and get hurt again. Please just consider what I am saying regarding that. The kids shouldn't be involved until it becomes a done deal really and you know with 100% certainty that you want to be together. Good- luck to all of you singles out there. I hope you find love and happiness. God Bless.
To Dakota: I love you...