There is a reason I never gave up. A reason I never will give up my
hope, my dreams, my desire to live. The reason is people who care.
Those who have shown their concern for me, and their wish for me to
succeed, to do the best I can do. They give me a reason to live.
A couple of those people are my parents. I thank my father for his
(possibly unintentional) ability to make me rethink what I did, or would
do. Is it good enough? Am I good enough? There are masters, there are
learners, and there are master learners. A real master never stops
learning. I am not a master. In subtle ways, again maybe not intentional,
my father taught me this truth. I was the cocky punk know-it-all, but my
father kept me in check much of the time. He made me re-evaluate
myself, made me look deeper.
My mother always thought what I did was outstanding, including the little
monster heads I used to make out of clay, complete with teeth. She was
amazed when I told her that I used a toothpick to put each tooth in. They
had eyes too. Sometimes a tongue.
I'd spend hours making those things. For what? God knows, maybe that
talent will come in handy someday. It certainly taught me patience, and
how to be thorough. That patience carried over to many other areas of
my life, my music, finding my true love, and other goals. I thank my
mother for her encouragement and love. She is certainly one of the
many people who kept me from giving up.
Still more of those people who made a difference are musicians and
artists. Most of them care, and you can tell which ones. Even if they don't
know who we are, they're talking to us through their music.
Rush, one of my all time favorite bands, has been a part of my life since
around 1977. When I was about ten years old I was looking through my
sisters record collection and discovered an album called "Rush -
Archives". It was a re-release of the first three Rush albums. I was
hooked. The lyrics were positive, imaginative, and inspirational, and the
music was just so cool.
My uncle got tickets to Rush's "Hemispheres" tour in 1979 and brought
my sister and I to the Capitol Theatre in Passaic, New Jersey, to see
them live. I didn't know what that strange aroma was wafting around the
theatre, but the spectacle was incredible. Forevermore I would dream of
being a "rock star."
The words of Rush lyricist and drummer, Neil Peart, and the incredibly
dynamic, and charged music of Rush led me down a path of music, and
discovery. Through the years, the words and music of Rush helped to
mold my character, and made me open my eyes to new things and great
possibilities. A world of wonder was created for me. I would never look
at the world the same way again.
Rush also had these really cool album covers, and being an artist of
sorts I was drawn to the designs. I learned that a fellow named Hugh
Syme was responsible for most of this wonderful art. His vision and
technique inspired me, his designs seemed to connect with my inner
Picaso and really influenced my art style. Today he still creates
unbelievable imagery, a mix of photographic, digital and traditional art
techniques, and you can't see the separation. Now there is a master.
I thank these people, and others, who have helped to keep my eyes
trained on the future, and the wonders of the world. The possibilities are
endless. There is never any reason to stop, to just give up. Our lives will
end on their own one day, don't rush it. Live now, see this world and the
great things it has to offer. Live, and learn.
Rutanya Alda, actress and friend of my cousin Peter Bankers who is a
publicist in New York, once told my friend Barry Manion and me to never
to give up on our dreams. She said "They can come true. Mine did."
Barry passed away at 27. He didn't make it, but I'm still here, and I'm still
pursuing my dream of being a professional musician. I carry a candle for
Barry, and when I make it he will to.
There are people who care, and they know you're listening. I know
you're listening, so listen. Don't give up.
Drew Vics, an artist, writer & musician from New Jersey, writes for
Myeyez.net, and for other websites online.